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Friday, May 20, 2005

I was wrong... My mum hasn't get over wad had happen on sun and she is still angry, she tok to me not bcos she wanted to but she mistook me as someone else... i find dat she is very childish and too much, such an old person already still so petty and always thinks dat she is right even when she is in the wrong and mus win everything, but so sorry I have my rights too and I noe where i stand... when i am in the wrong i definitely will apologise if not i won't lor...she only wans ppl to listen to her but she nv listens to ppl.. y? bcos she is so stubborn and unreasonable dat sometimes i wish i could slap her rite hard on her face TO WAKE HER UP!!! >=\ damn... and i really HATE her when she keep insulting Heavenly Daddy and always threatening me... (dearest heavenly daddy, i noe i should not say dis and i am sorry but i really can't stand it) sometimes i am jus wondering if she ever treat me as her daughter or not? i rather she gave me away to my auntie when i was born den to suffer in her hands nw... sometimes i jus envy friends around me who have an understanding and loving mother beside dem. Since accepting God and Christ in my life, i look at things and life more clearly.. i realise dat the person i can share my sorrows are only my dear and his sister bcos dey understands wad i am going thru...of cos i am not saying dat my close friends don understands me, it's jus dat maybe our beliefs are different and therefore it causes a gap between us... sigh, i jus hope dat wad i yearn for will cum quickly so dat i never will need to suffer the discriminations and critisms anymore...

9:16 PM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

sigh.. jus got hm frm sch and feeling very tired at dis moment cos i will be working later... actually i am suppose to have a chinese extra lesson nw but i didn't go becos i will be late for work and den i have to rush all the way so mite as well jus skip one day... finally my mum and i are better again... i am oso glad dat she spoke to me but i really hope she will not be angry wif me anymore... =)

2:34 PM

Monday, May 16, 2005

some updates on last Fri... as i was saying, i didn't go to sch and at night i went to watch The Amityville Horror wif my dear dear, his sister and his sister's boyfriend... well, the movie really got me jerking all the way in the theatre cos usually in horror flicks u will noe when the scary part is cuming and will shut ur eyes and cover ur ears, but dis movie no signal no anything but jus BOO!!! hahaha... when caught unprepared surely will jerk lor...though it was quite scary and very gory(yucks) but i still enjoy the movie alot...

yesterday, went to the indoor stadium for our service bcos we had four services combined as it was our beloved Pastor Prince's birthday... hahaha... *happy belated birthday Pastor Prince!!* i was very happyat first den at night i had another big quarrel wif my mother again which upsets me alot... she still could not accept the fact dat i wanna be a Christian, i tried toking to her nicely, but her attitude jus suck to the core... she started insulting Heavenly Daddy which make me really HATE her alot at dat moment... i grieved for my mother and i oso prayed to Daddy to have mercy on her for becos she is blinded, seriously i am very sick and tired of all dis craps happening at hm... i jus hope dat i can turn 21 AS SOON AS POSSIBLE so dat i can do wad i wan to do without anyone including MY MOTHER interfering my life... at least when the 'tsunami' rise i can escape to somewhere else... heehee...

sigh... wadever it is i still love Heavenly Daddy and my family alot and i will always love dem.. i pray dat everything will b over quickly and hope dat dey will understand and see how much i have done for dem... -_^

^^always smile ur problems away^^

3:49 PM

Friday, May 13, 2005

yesterday was not free to update bloggy cos my Maths exam ended at 3.30 and by the time i reach hm is already 4 den i had to meet my dear at 5.30 for bible study so i was lyk rushing all the way... today didn't go sch cos very sian somemore i have to stay back for Maths SSP, even more sian!!! dats y don feel lyk going to sch lor... later i will be meeting my dear cos we going to watch The Amityville Horror wif his sister and his sister's boyfriend... i was very unwilling to watch cos i am scared ma but dear dear keep pestering me so i've got no choice but to give in again nor... *_* hai... anyway its been a long time since i watch movie wif Angie and James already so nvm la, more ppl to watch at least not so scary ba... i tink so, heehee...

3:30 PM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

today i had my accounts paper 2... oh my god, last nite spend hours studying for it till my head is gonna burst.. so stressed up.... but glad dat it is over already cos tmr i will have my maths paper den every thing will be over, well, at least i can catch a breather before charging for my o level chinese paper which is on the 30th of dis month... june holidays will oso be cuming up *woo.. YES!!* i am so happy... heehee... cos i don have to wake up so early and can relax, but but but, i cannot relax too much lor cos i still need to prepare for my prelims -_-" wadever... i shall work hard and play hard... yeah... =)

6:40 PM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

haiz... jus got hm frm school again, feeling really damn bored!!! i was suppose to have an enrichment programme nw about money thingy... wadever... arrgh! i don care cos i am not in the least interested at all so i came hm straight after sch.... later i am going to revise for my accounts as there is a mid-year paper tmr but b4 dat, tink i'm gonna tk a nice bath first followed by a short nap den i start studying... anyway jane is having a chalet and she invited me to go tmr but i will not be going cos i am having another paper which is Maths on Thurs so i really need to study for it and dats y i can't make it to her birthday party... *sorry friend!!!* but i still wanna wish her a very happy birthday... *happy 17th birthday, ger!!!*

2:14 PM

Monday, May 09, 2005

jus got home frm school... sick... so many common test cuming up jus lyk tsunami hitting onto the island -_-zzz i hate my school life, i can't wait to graduate frm dis school... got to wake up so early every morning den go to sch still have to c some dumb faces dat makes me feel lyk falling asleep... hate it! hate it! hate it to a million times!!!! glad dat i jus have to endure for lyk another 7 months and everything will be over... wahahahaha!!!!

den my o level chinese oso geting nearer and nearer cos its only two weeks away frm nw.. *scared* and nex week onwards till the last week of sch, we have to stay back all the way till 4.30 for intensive chinese revision WHICH make it even more sick for me!!!!! haiz.... sian ah!!!!!!

2:43 PM